I die one day at a time.

I pray for the day that you’ll see me like I see you. You’re my truly love and the most beautiful person I have ever seen before. I want to know if someday you’ll close your eyes and see my face, if someday you will stay awake at night thinking where I am and if I am happy… 'Cause that’s all I do. I stay awake wondering if you’re smiling, because you can't imagine how much I love when you put a smile on your face. Your smile…It means the world to me.

I know what I feel but I just can’t explain in words. It’s so confuse. I’m in love with someone that doesn’t even know that I exist. And I wonder where this love will send me. I feel like flying when I dream awake with what we could be, but I always fall, because the reality brings me back to the ground. And sometimes the truth hurts, everybody knows it. Sometimes hurts me think that we will never be together, but that’s a fact that I have to accept. So I think I’ll keep dreaming and I am not ashamed to do that.

You showed me what the most beautiful and pure love is, and you also teach me that, while love can make you die “one day a time”, the same love can make you feel more alive than ever. That’s so contradictory but I can’t change the way I feel.
And I know that the distance and my non-existence are real, but I also know that my insane love for you is real too, and that’s enough. And no matter what people say, no matter if sometimes I cry about this impossible passion, I’ll keep loving and living this way.
The time goes by and my love is getting stronger, but someday,you'll disappear of my mind, but I know that my love will be there, where he’s today and where he’ll always be… At the bottom of my heart.

The impossible love is the most beautiful love in my opinion. Because we know that we’ll never be loved back, and we know that we’re No One for our love, but we keep doing it, we keep loving with all of our heart. We don’t receive anything back, just the real love that grows up in our hearts; real, pure, beautiful and painful.

And why we keep hurting ourselves with impossible loves? Just because we don’t chose them. They come without asking and we just can’t say “no” to the closest thing of magic that we can found in Earth.

I love you, Nicholas Jerry Jonas, and I'm promising to myself that I'll never let you fade from my heart.

“Some people say that you can’t fell in love with someone you never met. Too bad, I don’t believe it.” – Nick Jonas